Dodging a bullet

So, again I am convinced of Heavenly Father's love for me and taking care of me even when I am not doing my best.  So after trying to make up work for a week straight after being sick, which was after trying to make up work for a month straight after Katie left, I got hardcore burned out.  I didn't want to do any work.  I knew that I only had a little bit left, I knew that I needed to do it, and I knew that the Lord's blessings to me were dependent upon my working and being diligent.  It was hard for me because if I'm going into accounting, it will be easy to rationalize not caring about my math grades.  So I did very little work on Saturday, and as a result, I didn't have the blessings, and I felt pretty bad about what I was doing-- it stopped being fun for me to hang out and play video games non-stop.  

So then yesterday it all snapped back.  I held a four-and-a-half hour review session for my Math 113 kids, and I think I have done everything for them that I can.  Afterwards, I felt exhausted, and I didn't want to work anymore, but this time, I decided to act anyway.  I went to the library, where no video games or friends could distract, and I worked.  And it felt great.  So then I came home, and some amigas of mine asked me if I wanted to go to a hot spring-type thing with them.  I really wanted to go, but I had Bishopric meeting that next morning, so I had to decline.  Well, as it turns out, while they thought it was public property and so not a bad thing to jump the fences, they were mistaken.  My friends are now all facing minor charges against them, and I think I probably would have joined them in what they did had I gone with.  I am very grateful that the Lord urged me through my duties not to have to make that decision.  

Anyways, one more week, and I intend to make the Lord proud of my work.  Love you all, and see you next week!  Really!

Carson Marsh

5 December 2010- A day in the sickbed

It just goes to show you that the Lord can teach you through tons of different mediums.  As all of you know, I was really sick this week.  Had an intestinal infection, and it was not so much fun.  It also took me out of school for a good week, and I'm having to fight to the finish to get everything done and in before finals week.  I'm still not feeling well, and so it's going to require a lot of help from Heavenly Father to get it all done.
However, it could be a lot worse.  I remember thinking that my appendix was bursting and that even if everything with that turned out okay, I'd have to take incompletes on everything.  During that time of panic, I remembered words from a blessing that David had given me the night before when I had a fever and a stomachache:
"You will be blessed to recover from your sickness and to return quickly to your schoolwork"
Now, I'm still not fully recovered; Kisi gave me this food today that kind of took me out- my stomach is not used to her health foods anymore, now that it has been so long since I have eaten Katie's cooking (admittedly, Katie is the superior chef, but there was nothing wrong with it besides the fact that my body wasn't used to it).  However, I have been able to begin my schoolwork anew.  I am still quite behind; it is going to require all of my efforts to catch up just in time for finals.  But I can do it, especially if the Lord is with me.  And I intend to live and do as best I can.
I have tons more to say, but one of the things I'm learning is the importance of taking care of my body when it is down.  Off to bed with me.  Good night.